Greetings and salutations. It’s been a while. Too long really, but I’m trying to get back in the swing of things. I always wanted to work from home full time and balance that with my writing. In my head, I thought, I can get off from one job, no traffic and jump right into writing.
But it never ever happened like that. The opposite in fact. It took me a while to understand what it was that was stopping me from doing what I thought was going to be my dream job. The problem is the lack of social interaction. And due to the Corona virus, things have been changed drastically. I’m not huge on large crowds and it takes me a good amount of mental build-up to get there. I feel awkward most of the time in large groups. But it was my choice to interact or not to interact. Now, I don’t have a choice because interacting could mean something altogether different for both parties involved. At first, I was okay with not going out and ordering my food online and getting my packages in the mail. I’m sure I’m on Amazon’s top buyer’s list now. But I took for granted the little things I enjoyed when I wanted to. Going to the store and window shopping. Walking around the mall to people watch, or even meeting up with an occasional friend for a drink.
It put me in a deep depression after the second month, that I didn’t even realize I was in until it was too late. One day I looked up and noticed, I hadn’t written anything new. I kept making excuses of why I couldn’t write, and would just work to pay the bills, and then sit and binge-watch my K-drama’s all day. It was nice, for a while, but it got old really quick. I still love my drama’s though. Not even going to lie. But I wasn’t doing the most basic of things either for myself. Which was bad.
Once I realized that, I tried to get myself back on track, and like any routine lost, you have to re-train yourself. That is the process I’m in at the moment. Re-learning and trying to strategize a new plan, and what that realistically looks like for me. My creativity is coming back in waves. My writing has picked up, and the motivation to do more is building. Depression is no joke, and I’ve struggled with it all my life, but with Covid its worse.
I am working on India’s book, New Beginnings. The next segment in my Stories from Beauville series. I hope to have an update soon. Please watch for it! I hope it will bring you all the feel good! Thanks for supporting me, and I hope you’ll continue to do so! Stay healthy and remember to love yourself.